Every now and then some thing or event brings you back to earth and drags your head out of the clouds. Its like an explosion. You never expect it...and it starts out small but the cloud and fog grow.
It happens every now and then. You feel happy and at peace and then all of it is shattered. I won’t go into detail about any of it because I am more mature than that. But I will say that anyone who will criticize you and judge you for being nonjudgemental and friends with an eclectic group of people is immature. You have to be to stoop so low. Its a bruise to the heart and rude awakening that forever reminds me that some people become ugly over time. Sometimes you can’t keep faith in the past or holding on to what was and you have to really open your eyes to the present. Tonight...I learn that I can’t make everyone happy and for that I will lose people, but I also learn that they were never really worth it.
I deleted 523 facebook friends. It felt wonderful. Erased. Gone. Never have to see their shit again. If only you could do that in real life. Then all of my problems would be solved.
I don't really have much more to say for today. I think the best piece of advice I was given was from Phil and it was as simple. "You don't need them." No, no I don't. I never have and never will.
Love always,
Courtney
PS: All the music lately is from Eclipse. Yes, I know its Twilight...but in all fairness I dowloaded the CD before seeing the movie because the soundtrack from the first two were sick...so deal.
Currently Listening To: Heavy In Your Arms by Florence + The Machine
